Dearest readers,
I had a great night last night, but for the highs to exist, you must contrast them with lows. I got home at 4am, which is unheard of in recent years. A red flag that something might be up with the old noggin’ for me to have so much energy to stay up so late. Well, I paid the price this morning. I had to wake up at 8:45am to teach my 9am breathing and meditation class, and there was no way I was gonna let down my students.
I only had one member from Meetup attend, and I led her through a 30-minute breathing and meditation practice, and she said she really enjoyed it! I’m proud of myself for pushing through, even though I was half asleep the entire class. I went straight back to bed after the class and slept for another 3 hours. Woke up at 12:30pm, and that’s when I decided, I needed to take the rest of the day to myself.
I usually host an expressive writing group and mental health peer support group later in the afternoon, but it was just one of those days where I needed to put my needs first. If I don’t slow down with work right now, I will crash hard later. So I reluctantly canceled my classes, and I’m glad my participants were understanding of my need to prioritize self care. So now, I have the rest of the day to myself.
Plans:
- take a nature walk on the levee. Walk to the gym for 30 minutes, lift some weights, maybe go swimming, since that always soothes me.
- meet up with a friend for dinner later tonight
- read a book on the pool deck while sipping on electrolyte water
Sounds like a nice and chill day, after a weekend of high-energy activities. It’s always important to check in with yourself, especially during the busiest times of your life. You’re expending a lot of energy, but are you investing your energy into the right things? Friday was a party-party night. Those nights are few and far between for me, these days. Yesterday night was dancing until 2:30am. Great fun, great dances, new friendships… but I was wiped out after two back-to-back late nights. Lack of sleep is dangerous for someone like me, as it can easily propel me into a manic episode. I must pump the brakes and slow down my level of activity, and I’m grateful that today and tomorrow are much chiller and I can have ample time to read, write, and relax.
10:18pm
T’was a great Sunday. I had a little hiccup earlier in the day– there was a scheduled bachata event in SF that I wanted to go to. I made the 30 minute drive to the city, decked in cheetah print head to toe with a matching cheetah headband, and I was ready to tear up that dance floor. But when I got to the door, the organizers of the event bore bad news: the event was canceled. They had double booked the event venue and there was a kids’ party going on at that time… so, no bachata today. I was disappointed, but I was surprised at how well I took the news. I drove back to Redwood City with a placid smile on my face, still in a decent mood. Stopped by the pharmacy and picked up some medication, then I headed to Alhambra’s Bar and Restaurant to surprise my friend Anthony, who works as a bartender there. I got some work done on my grad school application (more on that, later). At 7:30pm, I met up with another friend, Eric, who is a student in my yoga class at Google. I had to set a clear boundary with him: I am not emotionally available to date him, or anyone, right now. I made sure to emphasize that I appreciated our friendship and wanted to still get to know him, but as platonic friends. I registered the slight hurt in his eyes when I said this, but he also appreciated my honesty. I’m not about to lead someone on without intentions of following through, because that’s just not fair to the other person. We shared deep, wholesome conversation over a plate of chicken, salmon, and carnitas tacos, and I left the restaurant with a smile on my face.
And now here I am, wrapping up today’s Blogmas. Gonna deliver some food to Jeremy, who works night shifts at a hospital. And hopefully I’ll get ample sleep tonight to make up for the past two days of sleep deficit. Talk to you guys tomorrow!
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