9:02am. A stolen moment to write.
Good morning, dear readers! Happy Tuesday! No one showed up for my 8:45am mat pilates class, so I drove to a nearby Starbucks to do a little R+R (rest and reflection) before my 9:40am yoga class (usually at least a couple people show up to that). To say I’ve been burned out with work is an understatement… I love teaching fitness and being a leader in the wellness space, but too much of a good thing is a bad thing. Moderation and steady pacing is the name of the longevity game; a life removed from extremes is the way to Enlightenment. Teaching 35 classes a week, 7 days a week, across 8 different companies is insane, and I was only able to sustain this pace for 4 months before burning out.
Last night, I made the difficult decision to walk away from a couple of my work commitments. Sent the dreaded resignation emails to my bosses, and felt deep sadness at leaving my beloved students at Bay Club Santa Clara and Canada College. But this was not supposed to be an emotional decision… it was out of sheer necessity, in the name of self-care, preserving my sanity, and reducing stress. I live with a chronic condition that flares up with stress, and I need to RUTHLESSLY prioritize my health, even if that means making difficult decisions to walk away from opportunities.
Also, I’m growing Venture True Wellness and that’s gonna take up a lot of time. Something has to give, lest I crash and burn. I have another email to send to another boss– gonna teach one class a week instead of two. Free up some of my Tuesday. More time to myself means more time to be creative… I need time to write my memoir, plan content for this platform, create new sequences for yoga and pilates, new dance choreography… the creative process demands unstructured time, which is a luxury I presently don’t have.
I’m excited to be slowing down with some of my work commitments, though I’m still going to be extremely busy with my side hustles that I hope will soon become my full-time hustle. Yes, it hurts to walk away from my students, with whom I’ve forged a deep connection. Yes, I am going to miss them, and they me. Yes, some of my bosses and students will likely try to coerce me to stay (I’ve had that happen the first time I tried to walk away from Bay Club Santa Clara). But I need to be strong and stand by my decision. It’s a logical one, not an emotional one. I am slowly learning to trust wisdom and logic over my big emotions. It’s how you survive in business, and life at large.
Anyway, I just gobbled down a jalapeño chicken pocket from Starbucks and am on my second melon burst energy drink of the day. Got to the country club a little early and took a cold shower in their locker room… it woke me up some. Gonna teach this yoga class, then drive to Bay Club Redwood Shores for my morning swim before teaching another yoga class at 12pm. It’s now 9:15am. Time to plan my next vacation… Lord knows I sorely need one. I’ll talk to you guys later!
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