Overloaded. Overextended. Stretched too thin. Stressed to the brink of migraines. Brain ain’t braining this afternoon. Starting 3 companies while working a day job. I swear on my dead parakeet Sheldon’s grave, if I don’t slow down, history will repeat itself and I WILL crash and burn.
(sigh.)
Hey, guys. Just needed to get those thoughts out of my head and onto the page. There is something truly cathartic about writing to process thoughts and feelings and release pent-up angst. I. Am. Tired. I trained 4 clients at the country club this morning, working from 7:45am to 12:15pm non-stop. It was my first time training so many PT clients in one day, all back-to-back, and I woke up this morning curious to see how I would fare. I prayed to God for strength, asked Him to help me give my best effort to each client, and I ended up doing a stellar job. But yeah, I’m pretty tired now, and there’s still oh-so much left to do.
I can’t afford to quit my day job yet to start my companies—Venture True Wellness, wedding dance and fitness services, the app—but until one or all of the businesses become self-sustaining, I am forced to be in survival mode, and try to get some sleep in my spare time.
The Struggle with “Executive Function Paralysis”
Now, I’m half-laying, half-sitting on a salmon-colored couch at Google, doing some business work and writing this post before teaching my final class, vinyasa yoga, here at 4:30pm. Lunch was scrumptious—DIY tacos with Spanish rice and pulled pork, brussel sprouts, truffle oil mushroom pizza, french fries, and coconut-vanilla soft serve. I took a couple boxes to-go for dinner. Thank you, Universe, for granting me Google—my food is taken care of.
I was in a limbo state earlier, trying to muster up the willpower to tackle ANY item on my to-do list. Send a message to a client. Request a testimonial from another client. Market research. Analyze the feedback form. Yada-yada. But the minute I set out to perform a task, it’s like an invisible force stopped me in my tracks, rendering me defeated, and the task did not get done. My mind and body would not allow it.
So I packed up my backpack, sulked over to the Google showers and jumped into the cold water. That woke me up some. And then I returned to the couch and started writing this post. When you’re stuck in executive function paralysis, the key is to do SOMETHING. Anything. Even if that something is writing about how upset/tired/unmotivated you are to do work.
Finding Momentum Through Expressive Writing
Why does the act of writing help generate momentum? It brings into focus your inner landscape, which can often get blurred out by pent-up emotions or sheer exhaustion. When you know you have shit to get done, but can’t find the willpower to get started, turn your attention to something else altogether. Like expressive writing.
You don’t have to publish your cathartic rant on a public platform, like I’m doing. You can write in the privacy of your diary, or the notes section on your computer. The writing doesn’t even have to be good. Just write it down, everything you’re feeling inside, and by the end of it you’ll feel:
- lighter
- calmer
- accomplished
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Inspired by the power of expressive writing? Venture True Wellness hosts a weekly online expressive writing group every Sunday from 1:30 PM – 2:30 PM PST on Zoom. Dive into guided writing sessions with unique prompts designed to spark creativity and self-reflection. Share optionally in a supportive, welcoming environment, or simply enjoy the catharsis. It’s a powerful tool for personal growth, emotional regulation, and overall wellness. All are welcome, whether you prefer typing or pen and paper!
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